i'm having trouble putting into words (and finding time to put into words) all that's in my head surrounding what's about to come in my first ironman this weekend. so, i suggest you read slater's blog which is very well articulated and learn all about putting hay in the barn for this same race. slater has been a true inspiration for me throughout this process because he is so damn positive all the time and he is turning into the incredible ironman hulk under legendary gordo's tutelage right before our eyes.
so, if i am going to put anything into words, you'll have to excuse me- this is just what i'm thinking right now... (in no order and very poorly organized)...this is a little more "Dear Diary, " than i'm used to writing-
*i never thought i'd be heading into my first ironman knowing i'm doing another one (Kona!) in just 5 months. two ironmans? can i do it? wait!!! i need to focus on the first one first!
*the weather forecast for st. george has been less than stellar (rain, wind, storms....) but we all know that can change.
*if i'm honest, i'm a little (lot) worried about the run. i know how hilly it is and i know that's my weakness. i also know i haven't really run over 2 hours at all in training. and i've done very few 2-hour runs. but i have backed up a lot of days of solid running in a row and done many long-ish runs, just not long runs. dirk really has helped me focus on the bike on weekends, but now, of course, i am doubting that i've done the run training. if i learned anything from my great day at oceanside 70.3, i learned to trust in the plan. dirk knows what he's doing and i've done the work (except for long swims- whoops, only did ONE over 4k...). i backed up week after week of training and had a nice solid "spring break" 4 weeks ago that should help me on race day. i think i need to look back over my training schedules and list out all the tough, long, solid sessions i have done and then i'll stop doubting that i can make it! this is one of the reasons why i MEANT to track and log my training in 2010, but i stopped somewhere february-ish. i just don't have time or energy at the end of the day. [so- needing some reassurace- i just went back and looked at my spring break schedule where i know i followed it to the tee- from April 3 to April 11 (so 9 days, not 7)- i trained 36+ hours. that should serve me well!
*and i know, everyone will say, "you'll be fine" "you're going to run 'em all down", etc...but we all know how messy things can get on an ironman race day! i just hope to keep on keepin' on and not have any major meltdowns. i'd be happy with that.
*time goals? i don't know honestly. if this were a flatter ironman, like IMAZ, i'd say my goal was somewhere between 10 and 11 hours. with this one- who knows- i'm DEFINITELY not going to run the race by pace at all. it will be slow. there are hills. lots. time would demoralize me. i'm thinking this race will be at least 60 minutes slower than a faster ironman, but who knows! so please, if you're tracking online- don't cringe when you see that i rode more than 6 hours or something- no big deal - i'm thinking it may even be like 7. who knows.
*other than that, i gotta go finish packing and get to bed. i'm packing for every possible outcome weather-wise and i hope i don't forget anything. i'm off to swim and work tomorrow and then we're hitting the road to UTAH! i hope to post a few times in the next couple days so you can really get a glimpse of what a headcase i am :)