|Thanks, Siri. It's a keeper.|
So, gradually this winter, things like this piled up and I was, for lack of a better word, about to lose it. With work stress, training stress, and challenging personal life changes, I just couldn't emotionally handle anything else. I hate the feeling of "not knowing what to do" and all this bike stuff fell squarely in that category. I also have a tendency to be a "can't be bothered with the details" person and had to shift my mentality because the details count and now I was in charge of them.
Mitch helped me see that I could never perform at 100% if my emotional fitness wasn't congruent with my physical fitness. So, I started by learning how to do things I could control. I learned more about the bikes I ride, I reached out to sponsors, I learned how to login to my website, I learned how to ask for help. I learned that the guys at Nytro will do most anything to help me because a) they're good guys and b) i bring good treats- (I guess one more thank you to James for teaching me how to pick good man beer). I was reminded that Nestor at Studeo DNA is always just a call away to help me make a quick decision. I learned that there are really good friends out there who will help me figure out the things I don't know and make sure I get them done. Friends that will come over at 7am with a pedal wrench kind of friends.
Once I made some progress on the concrete stuff, I also ventured into some of the more abstract parts of emotional fitness. On New Years, I made 3 resolutions: "Find Peace. Give Love. Dream Big." I think about these resolutions every day. Especially riding or running on the road alone, I look up, I look around, and I remember them and think about my progress towards all three. And its happening. Little by little, every day I'm seeing these three all around me.
As I wind down the week and head to Mexico to race Ironman Cabo San Lucas, I wanted to thank the people who've helped me become a little more emotionally fit over the past few months. Most of them have also helped me become more physically fit as well, but that's secondary to me at the moment. I've got a long way to go in both arenas, but there are a bunch of great people keeping me company on the bus towards that destination and I feel very lucky:
Thank you to Mitch for taking on what can be only be described as "a very big project". And thanks for taking such a holistic approach, you little hippie.
Thank you to Katya, Courtney, Jess, Keith, Jen, and Bryan for being there whether or not the water came from sweat or tears. (And thank you for making it fun to get faster.)
Thanks to Kristen, Kirsten, and Colleen for being rocks of friendship and sounding boards. See, you help my training by getting me emotionally fit to the start line- whether or not its the start line of an Ironman or life's next adventure.
Thank you to my Dad and my sister, for checking in on me even when I insist that "everything's fine". (But really guys, everything's fine!)
|Mitch helping me swap saddles (LOVE the ISM Attack!)|
|catch-up cocktail with Kirsten|
As my friend (and shoe guru) Dave Jewell says, "It's a good life."